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Thursday, April 11, 2013

Back in the fall I posted about how I was in crappy shape and wanted to lose weight and get healthier and blah blah.  Well, if you could see me now, you'd know that absolutely did not happen.  Sadly, I have gained more weight and now have to seriously put my foot down.  Yes, obviously, a huge motivator is that we have a wedding date set and I want my body to be bangin for that business.  But really...it is more than that. 
 
Right now I am the heaviest I have ever been...in my whole life.  Some of you might think "Oh wahhh wahh..shut up" but seriously, it is a big deal for me.  Have you ever just not felt comfortable in your clothes basically all the time?  That is how I feel right now.  I spend so much time thinking about how bad I look, but not doing anything about it.  I am constantly busy at work, busy at home and so I never ever eat well.  I mean ever.  McDonalds, Subway and Dunkin Donuts are being consumed every single day of my week.  And not only does that hurt my body but it is killing my bank account too.  Let me tell you...Ross would be so mad if he saw how much I throw away paying for shitty food.  I should calculate how much I have spent and see what that could pay for towards the wedding.  It might make me cry though.
 
I want to put this out there and get it all off my chest as a sort of starting point.  I want to start working on myself...on my body and my diet.  I just keep making excuses so that is going to stop today.  I'm not saying my goal is to lose a lot of weight, but just to be healthier and get my body in the right shape it should be in.  I have seen some really inspiring stuff from all of you awesome ladies and now it's my turn to get serious!
 
 
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8 comments:

  1. I am right there with you so all of this. I've always been a larger girl, compared to most girls my age (I'm 22). I feel like this last year of college I've gotten bigger and its probably because I'm so tired of campus food and eat out a lot. My dorm only has a microwave so making my own meals isn't possible (unless I microwave a meal). But this needs to stop. Eating out is hurting my bank account in a major way and I don't have a summer job lined up, so that's even scarier.

    I just feel blah. It's time for a change. We need to find a way to make each other accountable, because I'd totally do something like that with you if you are interested! Good Luck! Just know you are not the only one.

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  2. I never feel comfortable in my clothes. I only weigh like 147lbs and I'm 5'5" but I have HUGE hips and thighs so I'm a size 13 or L/XL and I feel ugly in like everything I waer. Sigh :(

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  3. I am with you! I graduated, and no longer walk all over our hilly campus daily. I got married and quit my job which kept me on my feet for 8 hours plus a day. And now I work from home. Let me tell ya. I am not pleased with my clothing options these days. If y'all want to join up and get back to loving our bodies I'd be more than happy to do that!
    Oh and Kaitlyn...I have some advice for you! Take advantage of the dorm only having a microwave! Do you have a mini fridge? Let's talk!

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  4. Amen sister! I am right there with you!

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  5. You go girl! You can do it! No better motivator than thinking of your wedding day

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  6. I'm right here with you. I have 6 months to go and I'm trying HARD to do better!

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  7. This is totally how I've been feeling too! Not a good feeling since summer is right around the corner :/ let's get motivated together!

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  8. Girl, I feel you. I'm the exact same way and can't figure out how to motivate myself. Good luck! You'll look fantastic on your wedding day :)

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