Is this a real thing? I found a wikipedia page, so it must be. I've noticed others talking about this recently as well...which makes sense since most of us bloggers are twenty-somethings either getting married, navigating single life, starting new jobs, moving...you know, all that good stuff.
I think it's safe to say I have officially entered my quarter-life crisis. Things have just been...different...since I came back from my trip home last month. I literally have no idea what I am doing. I am boring. I hate my job. I hate where I live. I don't have any friends here, I don't go anywhere, I don't have any co-worker friends, I miss my family, I miss my friends, I miss excitement.
I need to be challenged and pushed and to feel excited about things again. I thought planning a wedding would distract me from hating living here...but it did the opposite. It stressed me out even more and made me realize how much easier and more enjoyable planning a wedding at home would be.
I just turned 26 and what do I have to show for the past 26 years? Ross and I have no money in savings, don't really own anything, hate our jobs and are just stuck. And that is the worst feeling...being stuck. You can't move without a job...but you can't get a job very easily living somewhere else. And then how do you afford to move somewhere that is over twice as expensive as the place you live now? How do you tell people you 'failed' here and want out?
After a lot of the stuff in the news lately, my homesick-ness has intensified like you wouldn't believe. Life is so damn short so why the hell am I spending even a fraction of mine somewhere that makes me unhappy? People you love could be gone tomorrow but instead of spending time with them I am no where near them and that really sucks. I've done the distance for three years and I am just over it. I don't want it anymore. I want my parents just 45 minute drive away and my friends just a T ride or few blocks away. I am sick of the planes and the airfare and the missing out. I am sick of seeing everyone together on facebook and instagram and just staring at the pictures because I can't be there too.
So that's it...my whiny rant. If you hate me a little now or want to slap me, I totally understand. Whiners can be pretty annoying, I know.